in bloom

This whole week has been disaterous. From losing friends, to gaining friends, it's been hectic, overwhelming, emotional etc. etc. But it's all led to the great realization I had today. "What is the point of being sad?" Why can't I just look at a tree, or a sunset, and instantly feel this great passion for life? Why can't it work out that way? And from today, I've made the decission to make it that way. I usually make all these promises to myself of how I'm going to change my life and change my attitude, in desperation to be accepted or some shit. But, as cheesy as it sounds, not only am I doing it for myself, but for my mom. Through the shit I put her through this week, somehow made us insepperable in such a small amount of time. Overall, I love my mother now so I should love myself, or make an attempt to. I signed up for yoga classes with her, and we're planning on planting roses all over our yard, all that great spring stuff. All I have to work on is on some friendships with a selected few,to avoid another selected few, and get closer and mend past friendships. Overall, it's all hectic and I don't know why I typed this all up. What I'm saying is there is no benefit in being sad. I'm choosing to be happy and to enjoy my life and the people in it. Let's hope (I'm so determined so it's going to happen whether I like it or not) that is continues that way. Anyways, I've been in a "virgin suicides"y kind of mood as of recent. The whole concept of the movie is just dreamy teenage love with a side of suicide. The movie stills and pictures tend to make me feel nostalgic and want to live in a dream for the rest of my days. Overall, all Sofia Coppola films tend to do that with me. The simplicity of "Lost in Translation" was what made that movie perfect, not boring. Marie Antoinette is also another one of my favorites, mending old century time's fashion, culture, and "serious acting" with french pop music. God her movies make me want to be apart of something and live in something, you know?

I actually recently have found a new favorite phtogrpaher, who's pictures resemble the whole "Virgin suicides" type of feel. They're maginificant! Her name is Natalie Kucken and here are some of my favorite photographs she's taken.